It was a pretty rough day today after having sent that email. I had already been called into the head honcho's office on Friday because of an email that I sent that she complained about, so I was sure that I was B-u-s-t-e-d with a capital B. I was thinking all day long about how I would be able to weasel out of it all day.
I started to doubt what I did, wondering if I had acted in an unprofessional manner and was perhaps being a bit too direct and aggressive. I was confused and doubting myself all day long.
And then I got the telephone call from my boss that he wanted to see me in his office at 2:00 sharp. I admit that I was a bit nervous about the conversation that would take place because I wasn't sure how he was going to react.
I admit that my email was pretty aggressive. Not only did I send the aggressive email, I decided to cc it to the head man in charge, my boss, two of her equals, and three people who worked below her. My strategy was three-fold:
- I wanted to show the bitch that I am not afraid to bitch slap her in front of her boss, co-workers or employees. I suspect that because she is older than me, she views my 33ishness as being weak somehow.
- I wanted to scare the hell out of her three employees who are my equals. I figured that if they saw me bitch slapping their boss that they would think twice about also undermining me, which they have been doing. I also know that one of them is a huge gossip, and I am hoping that my bitch slapping behavior will be told to a few other assholes in their department who have been undermining me for the past two years.
- I wanted her boss to see what a big asshole she is. I knew that I was risking looking like an asshole myself, but I figured that it was worth the risk because I suspect that she is pulling the wool over his eyes.
So there I sat, in the parking lot, wondering what my boss was going to say or do to me. I sat there slightly doubting myself, wondering if I had gone overboard. But then I just thought, "To hell with it. I said what I said, and I stand by my actions".
You'll have to wait to see what happened next because I am so exhausted that I can barely see these letters anymore. Until tomorrow!